Went to Hawaiian Airlines cargo to weigh myself, yep they got this big scale that can weigh us big people. The guys working down there are so sweet, when I pull up and park, they discretely turn their heads while I weigh myself. Okay I am 354 1/2 pounds. That means in two weeks I have managed to gain 11 1/2 pounds. Remember I have been eating everything I think I will never be able to eat again ever.

Duh! What have I been thinking? What will my doctor think? I supposed to lose some weight before my scheduled WLS and here I am stuffing myself silly. I have lost my mind.

Focus Meliss..................there are no excuses for this behavior. I have four weeks to undo what I have done to myself.

I need help to focus. I'll go to the WLS site and read everything from beginning to end.

No sense crying, all the tears I shed won't get a pound off of this body.