Woke up this morning with determination to get my act together. I have 32 days before WLS surgery and I can not eat everything I think I'll never eat again till then. I'll be over 400 pounds if I keep this up.
Hello? What are you doing to yourself, Meliss? Got email from Kim of WLS and there is absolutely no reason why I have to eat all this stuff cause I think I not going be able to eat it later in life. People from Hawaii live and breath ................ rice. I have been cooking pots of it this past week and swallowing bowls full of it, knowing quite well that "rice turns to sugar" and sugar drives my diabetes carzy. I haven't eaten rice for months but now just before surgery, I feel like I have to eat it. Bowls of rice, kimchee and whatever fatty meats I shouldn't eat in the first place.
I am on a quest to make my blood sugars so high that I'll be too sick for surgery, I guess. Really stupid, Meliss. Kim said she can eat a few pieces of sushi as a treat once in a while now. Okay, now that piece of news from Kim has defintely put me in a "duh" moment. Who I fooling? She politely set you straight girl, you don't have any excuse now to be "Miss Piggy".
Reality check, girl. Fooling nobody, but yourself. You spend months preparing for this surgery and now one month and few days before it, you undoing all that hard work. Hello, Meliss. What are you thinking?
I guess you want to be Big Grandma to the end. Right? Skinny Little Grandma Hata strutting her bag of bones and you Big Grandma so tired, so sick, no can play with the grandkids, can not see your toes, hard time breath, fat fat fat. No way. Grandma Hata, move those bag of bones on the side and make way for this determined Big Grandma who not going be big any more!!!!!!
Okay no more stuffing myself. No more endless " last suppers" till the day of surgery. Imagine the surgeon refusing to operate on December 2 because I have made myself too sick for surgery.
Duh! Wake up woman. Here I am, Big Grandma .....................standing on the doorstep of a new healthy life.
Hello? What are you doing to yourself, Meliss? Got email from Kim of WLS and there is absolutely no reason why I have to eat all this stuff cause I think I not going be able to eat it later in life. People from Hawaii live and breath ................ rice. I have been cooking pots of it this past week and swallowing bowls full of it, knowing quite well that "rice turns to sugar" and sugar drives my diabetes carzy. I haven't eaten rice for months but now just before surgery, I feel like I have to eat it. Bowls of rice, kimchee and whatever fatty meats I shouldn't eat in the first place.
I am on a quest to make my blood sugars so high that I'll be too sick for surgery, I guess. Really stupid, Meliss. Kim said she can eat a few pieces of sushi as a treat once in a while now. Okay, now that piece of news from Kim has defintely put me in a "duh" moment. Who I fooling? She politely set you straight girl, you don't have any excuse now to be "Miss Piggy".
Reality check, girl. Fooling nobody, but yourself. You spend months preparing for this surgery and now one month and few days before it, you undoing all that hard work. Hello, Meliss. What are you thinking?
I guess you want to be Big Grandma to the end. Right? Skinny Little Grandma Hata strutting her bag of bones and you Big Grandma so tired, so sick, no can play with the grandkids, can not see your toes, hard time breath, fat fat fat. No way. Grandma Hata, move those bag of bones on the side and make way for this determined Big Grandma who not going be big any more!!!!!!
Okay no more stuffing myself. No more endless " last suppers" till the day of surgery. Imagine the surgeon refusing to operate on December 2 because I have made myself too sick for surgery.
Duh! Wake up woman. Here I am, Big Grandma .....................standing on the doorstep of a new healthy life.
posted by Melissa @ 9:30 AM
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